The eyes are often the most important part of a self-portrait. We recognize each other and empathize through eye contact. Through the eyes we show vulnerability or materialize emotion. They establish intent as they seem to follow you around a room.

I created this self-portrait entirely during manic states. I wanted to give the viewer a glimpse of what it is like to experience and create during a manic episode. During mixed or dysphoric mania, it is common for the pupils of the eyes to widen, making them appear almost black. The lack of detail and reflection of light deviates from what traditional portraitists value most. It creates a void that seems to stare back at you.

I think we create self-portraits (or any art) as a way to deal with our mortality. Our desire to recapture those meaningful yet fleeting moments speaks of our longing to exist through narrative long after we have gone or that moment has passed. 

Oil & mixed media on canvas